THE BURGUNDY POEM

"You Aim For My Heart, And You Succeed."

Five months passed, and we talked once again.

A promise we made that we would grow in the end.

I shouldn't have let you hold the gun,

I don't even know if you had to kill me or just did that for fun.

Why did I let you in once again in my life?

When all those words you said once again was lies?

To fulfill promises, to empty promises.

Now I have to face the consequences.

I did wish you would have changed your mind,

Myself is missing and nowhere to find.

Does it satisfy you when you keep breaking me?

Or saying you love me yet watch me drown in the sea?

Telling him that letting me die is for my own good,

But if you really want to save me, you would.

You shot me, aiming at my heart to go for blood.

I can see a shade of burgundy that pours over my body like flood.

Call it love but letting me burn in flames,

Im so sick and tired of your stupid games.

All I know I can mend these scars and make my own name,

While you're nothing but the same.

Always that angel who guides you all day,

Always that warrior who fights for you to stay,

Always that nurse to heal you from the pain,

But in the end, I'm still a soldier with another blood stain.

You knew that I should have been the one.

You also knew that you never met someone.

And you know I would love you endlessly,

But in one week and two days, you killed me shamelessly.

I used to be your guardian angel and your savior angel,

But now I'm a fallen angel who dances in the pit of burning hell.

And just like what they say. A woman can love your demons in the darkness,

And can also break herself just to comfort your sadness.

I will always remember our history.

Yet I'm tired of hearing your sorry.

I gave you everything.

Now I can't feel anything.

Kissing you and hugging you in my dreams felt true,

But to know I wouldn't be able to touch you, felt like a different shade of blue

Now, tell me, Jake

Is this stupid love real or fake?